5th february, 2008: i just want to turn you down.
it’s been a very interesting week, in terms of the mind-perhaps not so much in terms of reality, but in my mind i have beautiful adventures.
my favourite programme on Sky One-Weeds-came back for the third season this week! it’s sad to get so excited over television, probably, but i really do love this show. anyhow, there was a song at the end by a band called The Thermals, called Here’s Your Future. honestly, it really has been on my internal playlist constantly since i heard it. i just got in this mood where i had to scream at everything, and it just set the mood perfectly. they aren’t very wide spread, but they are incredibly good and i really recommend checking them out on myspace if you haven’t heard of them: www.myspace.com/thethermals
i’ve been very emotional this week thus far, mainly because of somehing Ryan said to me yesterday. he wants me to “forgive” my friend for what she did, but he doesn’t understand-i have forgiven her, but that doesn’t mean things are the same between us. i’m a very paranoid person, and i don’t trust people easily after they’ve betrayed me anymore because it happened far too much; i just broke down by the end of it last year. so of course, me and her are still friends-but i can’t trust her like i could before, our conversations aren’t the same at all and honestly, i’m not sure i can just revert to how things were before. there won’t be emnity between us-i’ve known her twelve years of my life, it’s not possible. however, i can’t keep forgiving people as easily as i have before.
i didn’t update about my Sixth Form taster day experience, did i? oh lord, it’s amazing! i tried out english literature and language, psychology, sociology and media studies-i’m taking them all apart from sociology, because i can’t take five. i’ve instantly fallen in love with english literature and language, i couldn’t stop myself. and psychology was intense, very interesting and challenging. media i already take at GCSE and love-my teacher begged me to take it over sociology, bless her-i think i’ve made some pretty wise choices.
went to the doctor’s to register with a new surgery today-usual health checks. i’m apparently perfectly healthy, aside from my smoking, diet and exercise issues, which pleases me just so. she asked me what i wanted to do for a career, and when i said i wanted to be an english teacher she said “oh god, i’d want to kill them all”. seems i chose a somehow worse profession than testing urine, which i think is a result. honestly though, i’m very set on it.
ah dear-so that’s the last few days in a nutshell. sleep well :]
xoxo
ps: listening to: barely legal by the strokes
from album: the modern age EP
