21st july, 2008: goodbye, beloved one.

and this is not the end, but only the beginning of something i will work as hard as i can to keep going.

today i got some shit news, and it’s on my mind. my girlfriend’s parents want her to stop talking to me, seeing me, anything. and it’s just got me angry and upset and i have to just wait it all out, which is frustrating as ever. they’re ultra-catholic, and also because i’m older they also think it’s a bit off. i met her at a msi concert and i had no idea how old she was, what her parents were like, none of it, but i liked her because she was cute and funny and made me smile, and i don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. if she was older then there’d be the whole taking advantage of debate with me and my parents, and i’ve had it before with the ex, but now the tables have turned and it’s not the best position. i think it’s more the catholic thing that’s annoying me-they’re effectively trying to upset their daughter, and that’s something that really goes against my beliefs about unconditional parenting as well as generally being a nice person. you don’t need a deity for that, no matter what your deity is. that aside, it is their religion and if they believe so strongly in it then i suppose i have to respect that view, but it will not be affecting how much i care about rosie and our relationship. i won’t let it, she means too much to me.

i’m a very liberal person, and i’ve never had very much experience with people who don’t share that view. my dad was one of those people who just thought saying you believed in god was enough, and didn’t do much past that point-i don’t live with him anyway-and my mum’s very much like me, with no religious ties and very open about things concerning diversity. my friends are very supportive, and i don’t have any close friends who have a strict or strong religious belief, perhaps down to the kind of culture they’re in. rosie’s friends are very happy for us, but family is important to the acceptance of any relationship and i suppose this is why this is so hard right now.

anyway, on a better note, i had my induction today. it was great! small rundown:

• woke up at 7, dead. got dressed and that and then bus for 8.30, in by 9.15
• met up with claireydee (who also got the job!) and we went in for 9.45 after a quick expresso, of course
• sat in the lounge with the other people and claire and i had a chat, everyone else seemed very nervous and didn’t know anybody
• met Batista (SRSLY, BATISTA, JUST LOOKED SO BADLY LIKE HIM) who toured us around the back bits. Billions of fire exits, i will never remember them all. Loads of tunnels, will get lost. Got taught the basics of cages and the giant truck things that can squish you. Eep?
• met a few people from management, watched videos. Yay!
• lots of signing of paper. H&S course very quickly, and a questionnaire. exciting! signed our lives away to The Company. also, used one of the tagging guns. quite fun.
• batista met up with us again and took us through LP. i am now paranoid about shrink.
• dressing room rules; batista was ADAMANT about this one. woah.
• back to the lounge for some looks at where to look for shifts, and the hand scanner thing that looked disturbing but WILL MAKE SURE WE GET PAID.
• lots of shiny booklets to take home. also, the 16s had to fill out liability sheets, because we’re all lovely and innocent. no big hassle, like. my name tag is awesome, because it has a spanish symbol over the n by accident!

xx

ps: listening to: provider by n.e.r.d
from album: in search of…