10th march, 2009: it’s an appeals process

i think. i think all the time.

i came up with this because i know i do this. have done this. try not to do this.

it’s a constant process of filtration. trying to fit everything together until i find a combination that works. trial and error method, of commitment then detox. relapsing. i work in waves (hello and goodbye), of rises in amplitude (arguing, pleading hysterically) and increasing frequency (until i’ve learnt this properly, we go over it, again)

i’ve only not done this about once. i lost my chance there-so, sticking with what works.

i know just how to wind you up
watch you twist around
and then around three in the morning
pick you up from lost and found

cause lovely, i’m frustrating
and you’ll never be too far gone
from week to week you’ll settle
but your score goes back to none

i’m a needy kind of girl, understand
be close so i can push you away
to be roped back in and start over, again
stipulating when you should stay

i like to keep the script fresh
changing sheets, writing lines for you

xo